下辈子如果我还记得你

its damn early la.
im awake.
omg.

yest wen body massage at parkway w benson, siewling & sam.
damn ticklish yet pain.
now im having stiff neck haha.
tink now i need a neck massage.

yay ! next week i'll be workin partime!
earn more money!!! $$$$$$$$$$$
den my hp (N76 or SE k810i) will be on its way....
so not used to not taking pics man.
sibei zi lian april !
LOL.

shit. exams. u come too fast.
go awaayyyyyyyyyy. shooooo.
i wana enjoy life lei.

thurs wen out w audrey.
did some manicure at katong.
den hang ard at tamp coffeebean.
sam came.
slacked.
fetch SL.
den gelare.

im on a diet.
1 meal a day to satisfy my hunger.

later...
meeting baby & frens.
:)

你说下辈子如果我还记得你 ....
我们死也要在一起 ..

i need assurances now..
feelina a lil more sensitive and uneasy than usual. ha.
and i wana sing K!

*if only saying SORRY is this easy, there wouldnt be polices in this world.
sorry aint escaping the whole situation. but by doin sth in solving them.

i wonder when will that day come?
the day when i cant take all these anymore & my patience runs out.
and im not the nicey girl you used to know anymore all filled w complaints and all the patterns coming out from me till you cant stand me no more.
will ur pattern still repeats itself?
cause till that day, i would have unbearingly know what to do...... even if its really really beyond my wish.
i don wan tat day to come.

no more cravings, no more surprises.
quality time spent matters most 2 me
and i fuking don wana study no more

why do GUYS always don fuking mean wat they say?
today say one ting , tmr do another.
like jus totally forget what they said.
like jus cant be bothered like tat.
is tat it?
if keep draggin tmr, i tink the day will never come :D
den can simply forget about everyyyyyyyythin.
i really hate TALK but no ACTION.
talks about travelling, exercising tgt, one day buy porridge for me from 201, fetch me home from SCH after u grad. etc etc. ONE FINE DAY.... wont turn out la.

don wan say don wan la.
i rather not have that plans den to have that plans made and in the end it nv turn out.
tat's wat i really HATE.
omg, IM JUS SO USED TO IT.
GUYS, TYPICAL.
i take your words seriously, but its like u're saying it out for the sake of saying.
people dont know how to cherish till its gone.
*disappointed.

The Boyfriend Diaries

1.HIS Full Name ~ Benson Gan Kar Kiat

2. How old? ~ 20

3. How long it takes for you to be a Couple? ~ In a flash of lighting. Think 1 week.

4. How special is he to you? ~ very special LAaaaaaaaaaa.

5. How do you get to know him? ~ for you to know. for me to find out.

6. Did you like him while you both were still friends? ~ in a way...

7. What can you describe about his characters? ~ nice, sleepy, lazy, "sweet" guy... lol

8. Is he taller than you? ~ YES.

9. Ever give him a Birthday present?- Not the time yet.

10. Is he Working or Schooling?- just grad.

11. Is there anything about him that can make you change for the better?e.g.behaviour? ~ ya. change me to a better person.....

12. Do you stay in the same Hometown as HIM? ~ next to each other. PSR - tamp

13. What can make you easily pissed off about him? ~ plans to meet ups & last min cancellations.

14. Bad Memories with him? ~ is that one counted? doubt so... NONE

15. What do you call him?- Deardear...

16. Is there anything you would want him to change? ~ i like pple as their natural self. but one word : cherish

17. Where do both of you usually hangout? ~ tamp blk 9xx

18. Do you think he's HOT?- only in my eyes....

19. Ever lie to him before?- white lies?

21. Are you lucky to have him?- Yes,of course I am

22. Do you like his favourite color?- yup

23. How long have you known each other?- Since july 2007.

24. Does he Smoke/Drink?- yes yes , lol

25. What kind of Songs he prefer?- songs tat are nice. old songs!

26. What kind of accessories, clothes and shoes you prefer him to wear? ~ just berms & flipflops.

27. Whats the last message you received from him?- i miss u ma. HAHA =x

28. He lie to you before?- not sure lei.

29. What kind of hair do you prefer him to have?- that ite days hair ! or now also can .

30. AGAIN--IS HE SPECIAL TO YOU??- not special . but very special

31. Who is he?- BFBFBFBFBFBFBFBF !


i wan swensons ice cream!!!

When Love Calls.

Girl you are to me, all that a woman should be and I dedicate my life to you always.
A love like yours is rare, it must have been sent from upabove.
And I know you'll stay this way, for always.

And we both know, that our love will grow and forever it will be,you and me. (yeah)
Ooh you're like the sun, chasing all of the rain away.
When you come around you bring brighter days.
You're the perfect one, for me and you forever will be.
And I will love you so, for always.

Come with me my sweet, let's go make a family.
They will bring us joy, for always.
Ooh boy I love you so, I can't find enough ways
To let you know, but you can be sure I'm yours for always.

*
wedding dinner of Gerald (cousin) & Kristie at UIC building Noble House at Raffles area.
40 over tables. me and family seated near the stage.
close up view but no pictures taken :(
i superduper need a hp-camera or a camera!
i soooo wana capture all beautiful shots whereever i go =)
its always touching to see couples get married and their lovey dovey videos.
i so wana get married too !!!!!! LOL.
they can be tgt since JC days. which means like ard my age.
and now one is 27yrs and my cousin 28.
7 yrs r/s? waddda......

craving for bedok 85 bak chor mee+sugarcane w/ lemon+o-luah.......
craving for selegie chicken rice !

its good that im gettin sick of sweet cravings.
i can slim down moreeeeee.
ok la, exercise soon ya? :x

fly me to taiwan people.......

流沙

so many things are uncertain..
im afraid to tink about the future.
don wana tink about anythin....
"wo zi zai hu xian zai he wei lai"

i wonder.
wen will the day come?
wen i can do watever i want.
no one's holding me back.

life sucks.

marie finally got her tattoo done.
small one in 2hrs ++
im tempted too.
i need a parttime.
jus submitted resume to kelly services online.

working is better den lazing around.
spendin time wit u is better den lazing around.

night life.
pubs, clubs, drinking, games -> will i be able to cut them down?
at times im jus not in the mood to socialise esp wen im tired.

i don like stayin at hm. set me freeeeeeeee
not in any mood for cousin weddin.
not in any mood to face aunties and uncles.
wat can i say wen i see them?
NOTHING

MY WANTS. LOL.

turn back time

class test coming up.
so much to study! sighsssss.
im so lazy now in MDIS as compared to studyin in ite.
i was ok la, still lazy but more hardworking den NOW.
my worst character is my laziness !

and as i grow older,
i will find that i have little time left for youth.
and i will try to not laze around so much.
do more meaningful things and experience more stuffs while im still young.
i used to have the tot of teaching in a montessori.

thanks classmates for the accompanying me tdy.
and realise that we have a certain common interest - old chi/eng music tat is.
lol.
fuking tired.
first time i swore tat i cant wake up tdy!
and i don wish to go to sch at all.
yest nite can even chat on the com and lie down on the desk and fall aslp.
W.T.F.

i always think tat im right.
and i have to change myself.

*daddy;s the best
*baby;s graduation ! means more time for me . muacks

Soulmate

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

i'm glad im seeing baby later !!
miss him like fuck.
tat liang po po act.
lol.

im GUILTY.
imma troublemaker.................
words within me tat doesnt shows out.

imissyoubabyimissyou.

been ages since i played the last MJ.
like 2mths ago.

april's bf - on tat chivas bottle

MADE A MISTAKE WICH I SHLDNT YEST.
AND IT CAUSE SOME PROBS IN THE END...
ITS MY FAULT. SORRY...
I DIN PUT MYSELF IN UR SHOES..
BUT THOSE MSGES DON MEAN A SINGLE TING TO ME AT ALL.
I WONT REPEAT IT AGN.

if only life was better.
if only they could understand me.
if only we change as the world changes.

no matter wat happens,
no matter how i felt...
i'll still love u.
jia you, faster grad.. don faster go NS :)

当刺猬爱上玫瑰

THANKS all for asking me to drink more water.
lol.

http://item.rakuten.co.jp/pixycal/11483/
eunice's endless links given to me makes me fall for japan dresses too!
nb. no $$.
niceeeeee.

i cant believe im home since fri nite till sun nite.
world records broken.

got cousin weddin dinner to attend.
dono wat to wear?
cant imagine. like his first gf for 5yr+ and gettin married.
wah.

if i had a less broad face w a sharper chin and a less broad shoulder and smaller thighs and waist.
and let me grow few more cms taller and let me be as white as full house actress.
im PERFECT le.

stop askin me wer is my bf... or why nv meet him.
sick of answering this qns.
LOL. so near yet so FARRRR~

..

fuking sick yest.
had fever up to 38.7 degrees
vomitted . no matter wat med i took.
i super hate this .

but im ok now..
not sure to go sch tmr or not.

slept for like one whole fuking day.
im super weak :(
sat wasted. but its ok doesnt make any diff.

*spare a thought for me will u?

and im craving for sakae sushi again.
i need to eat them like once every mth? lol

HuaDouKaiHaoLe

the PROBLEM wit me is.
i must get wat i want.
i expect plans to turn out my way or watever things i wan i must get it.
and wen all these doesnt goes my way, i will jus become pek cek.
sudden mood of change.
and i know nothing can ever change my stubborn character.
i shldn't be pissed off. but i jus felt tat way.
losing patience.. am not understandin anymore...

sometimes its very hard. very very very hard.
i don undstn why.
3 DAYS A WEEK , is it very hard to ask for?
i tink it is.

since last fri incident..
the trust's gone down.
too many loop holes left unexplainable.
and tmrw is ...... happy 2 months
bet u don even rmb the date.

frens shall be more impt as of tdy

谢谢你的温柔

wakeboarding was fun.
but its hard for me to balance.
wen wit anicia, joyce, desmond, benson and instructor-fren vincent.
lol.
the instructor said i am like how most guys did, trying to fight wen on the wakeboard.
joyce was power la. twice and she can balance.
wah...
nb.
anicia was funny.. haha
tink i got more tanned?
super tired. nv felt this tired be4.
the moment got up the speed boat jus lie there like some dumbfuk.
no strength to even get up. lol.
thanks for the experience ;) i will try if got the bucks in future.
1 hr = 100 + @ Marina Country Club.
love the breeze wen on the speed boat =)

-ilu

-i wana shift out.

-i wana be independent

-i wana work

-i suck
photo was taken using ting's SE K810i & i wana get tat hp.
me and ting at qiren house. shagggg.

如果一开始你爱上的人是我

happy 20 bday dearest marie
happy 21 bday ah yong

doin ur best???
i dono...
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

beautifool girl - sean queenston

boooo ~

back from car prac..
my mind sibei tired.
in control of the car for 2 hrs is tiring.
drove till tamp tdy.
im more confident in driving.
but i seriously hate clutches lor. fukkk
damn ma huan.

on sat my sis ask me to help make up for her for the first time lo.
make up is super essential to me.
stumble upon a pic she took tat day and guess which is her ?

tired to type le.
meetin HS for early dinner & can see his whitooo.
lol.
i wana watch movie ! :)))))))))

ying wei ai suo yi ai .

i.....
u...

apartment 1303
rat show
nakura 19 ( i tink )
EVAN ALLLLMIGHTY

the shows i wana watch...

i wana cherish the times, not lose it.

sometimes, i don feel the sincerity or the enthusiaism in u.. ? why?

i prefer having a bad memory than having a good one.
rather be the one to forget everyting.
i wana go back to the day wer i was working busy like fuk.
jus concentratin on work. aint tat good.
no time to tink of many other tings unlike now. so FUKING FREEEEE.
can go mad.
wen i work.. tats the time i tend to get memory loss.

SRJJ

BAF is finally over ;);)

i hope can score B . i wan my surprise ! crack ur brains pls (:

wen to bugis near the temple there to eat w classmates after paper.

den go in temple bai bai.

im super tiredddddd.

HAPPY 24TH BDAY JASON

AND

HAPPY 23RD BDAY DESMOND

one is having bbq at ECP.

and the other at shins.

mon, new days new subjects.

no rest days at all.. so sad.

i cant wait to graduate~

i wana watch evan almighty and ratoutile? dono how to spell la.

me & henry - my 13th floor neighbour cum ex sch mate. taken last mth i tink.

回心转意

即使你问我几千万片，我还是会说我跟本都不建议.

MH to zouk to fly to mono to fly to mono to fly.
i feel so sick of clubbing alr. i dono why.
noisy scenes , so crowded everywer.
i'd rather pub. but pubbing feels so sleazy to me now.
all the way from 12 - 6.
2words: bored, tired.
i was quiet all the way.
like in the cant be bothered to socialise mood..
planned to reach hm at 2+
but in the end it turned to 6+

at times i feel so upset seein my fren like tat.
and i really wana help her.
lead her back to the road where she's not lost.
i feel helpless.
im a hopeless myself too.
bcos my attitude sucks.
sorry.

^^

Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)[?]

The Bottom Line
You need to have a conversation with a friend about your feelings. Share the truth.

In Detail
Time is definitely going to be on your side today, so use it wisely. Your romantic relationship is getting stronger, and today the two of you will finally have all the time you need to have that conversation you both have been waiting to have. Be honest and trust them with your feelings -- the good, the bad, and the vulnerable. This is an important opportunity to get everything out on the table and determine what you are dealing with. Make plans for the future.

Gemini (May 21 - Jun 21)

The Bottom Line
Your finances are you own business, no one else's, no matter what advice you get.

In Detail
Your finances are you own business, and no one else's, no matter what their relationship to you. So if you're feeling tight with money (or loose with money), then you have every right to act accordingly. Avoid the advice you're being given on how to save more or spend more wisely. Only you truly understand where you're comfortable trimming costs and where you're comfortable splurging. Let those people sacrifice what they want to sacrifice. You sacrifice what you're willing to sacrifice.

最爱的人伤我最深

i wan a digital camera.. so i can oways capture all beautiful shots of my beloveds & places i go..
i wan a PSP. been wanting it since...
i need a new hp.
i need a brand new watch.

the diff between needs and wants.
wen im down, there will be more tings tat will happen to me tat will make me more down.
my watch dropped on e floor again.
there a crack there. im so upset.
so many tings happening.
all not smooth.
why? why is life unfair.

wen can this matter ever be resolved..
i will be most happy once it has been solved.
tats the only prob to my misery.
and i dono how.
i've no air to breathe.
SIGHS SIGHS SIGHS SIGHS SIGHS

car nearly buang tdy.
die better.
no worries.
lol.

不让我的眼泪陪我过夜

i've learnt sth today.
there is never an easy way out.
only lazy people like me takes the easy route out
and this results in... taking supp paper lo.

think half the class sure concentrate on Set A.
i sure flung lor. 1 hr 20mins and im out of the class.
know how to do 1 qns out of 5. others jus anyhow write.
im surprised set A din come out cos teacher say set A 80% will de lor.
$$%^&*(#$%%^&*()
im disappointed w myself.
so much time and efforts i've wasted on..
brain cells gone dead.

wen to vivo w wan ling, melvin and jing le after sch.
slacked ard..

thanks cleve for helping to get a job ..
appreciated.
lol.

ACCOUNTING - I MUZ DO WELL
down down everythin's down =(