i'm freaking dead sleepy already, it's like close to 4 in the morning?
went town as usual to meet the boy today.
didn't catch any movie, all we did was dota dota DOTA.
we played dota for 4 and a half hrs (break in between)
i tell you sometimes i really can get piss off with dota.
esp PROS.
comments all like SHIT.
you were once newbies too ya f**ker.
even if my friends who play dota are reading this sooooooo?
game only, some today can even shout at DOME, go back go back!
whatever shit. super noisy the whole lan cause of his damn voice.

lucky he helped me today commenting them back!
super noisy *PROS*
think next time if i can remember their nickname.
shall list them in here! hmph!

newbies or close to being better are best actually. hahaha.
cause they are really super into this friendly match thingy.
their comments in the newbies channel were like complaining about PROS.
LOL.
they boost my confidence. oh wahahaha.

i'm changing character. i want range! but pandaren brewmaster skills is OUCH!
still at storm now -.-

approximately 1 week and 1 day to the start of work.
i'm getting a lil' lazy to work. all for the sake of money.
yet i don't wana be tai tai. super boring life.
omg, i don't know what i want.

craving for good food again.
can i have mussels, chilli crabs, stringray.
baked rice, mud pie from coffeeclub, koi bubble tea at TPY!
maggi mee with lucheon and egg at safra tamp! LOL.
guo tie from hk cafe, sakae sushi with partner, salmon sashimi omgggggg.

enough said.
i'm going to dream of these darlings tonight.
gooooooood night!

热浪

busybusy me.
busybusy outings.

10,000 BC - A MUST WATCH!
super duper nice, a lil' funny and touching thou.
esp for history lovers out there? lol.
the actress is super HOT!

next up soon, the water horse :)

his gona be enlisted soon.

13th march.

the day is nearing..

maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow

hola!

i'm sitting in front of the com late night surfing for nice nice dresses/tunics/floral designs again!

and..

kinda calculated.

by this wed, there will be around 4 - 5 more dresses/tops arriving in my mail box.

ordered eyelashes too. cheap-oooooo!

broke-o = me :(

accompanied the boy with his colleauges to hill top muay thai training at bukit batok nature reserve today.

omg, it was raining cats and dogs, and there wasn't any shelter (only a phone booth)

lucky, the shifu was kinda enough to let me sit in his car.

and he kept telling me that his students will all protect their gfs. wont let them get bullied etc.

and i had to wait for 3 hours hogging on the psp just to wait for him to end the training.

and my journey home? takes 1 and a half hrs :x

and i think his going for more trainings, which is deadly for april.

anyway anyway, accepted the quite low-paying job anyhoo.

what to do. many jobs out there but mostly didn't reach me.

so why should i wait? there's still my diploma cert + increment after 3mths of probation right?

hard work pays off... that is if im hardworking :P

after much consideration over a night of deep thoughts,

i can't really say that i just realised, but to think of it,

why did i even take up business management courses?

i should be into mass comm/visual comm!

my passion ain't into shipping nor banking (just cause the pay is good goondo!)

just simply wish i could turn back time.

i wana work in an advertising co, i wana be a photo journalist, i wana be in between the mix of media, design & marketing.

now, my dreams shattered? months ago, i could still have taken that in MDIS.

now i'm kinda thinking of taking mass comm (it's a very dumb thought thou)

alright, starting work on the 17th of march, signing the appointment letter tomorrow.

hope all well goes well.

then i'd be awaiting my new new sony digi cam, new new hp, new new designer bags/wallets and new new more more online shopping!

not to mention i need a holiday!

bangkok again.

taiwan.

hongkong.

you name it, i'll go :)

life is happier day by day.

The Leap Years

the happiness, bliss and fate in their eyes.

its a rainy sunday.

boooooo.

caught leap yrs movie yesterday with the boy.

4.5* :)

its really a truly romantic movie and the actors/actresses are all HOT!

esp li-lin and the thai guy.

it's a meaningful movie and more on like some fated love story.

do you believe in fate?

i still do (: , nevertheless.

went to career exhibition yesterday.

nothing much though.
oh ya, i was offered a permanent job and im still considering cause the pay is little but its a big company :)

but the 3months bonus is really good thou, that is, if i worked 1 year throughout which im not even sure of myself to last till then.

or should i go back to shipping line, then, i shall find a MNC co, get a better higher paying job :P

or banking? but people say, once you start working in a bank, you will get stucked there forever.

anyway, i'm hooked to the tvb ch 55 9pm gambling drama la.

i feel like becoming a dealer now can?

mahjong yesterday at mer's place.

i win by a tiny weeny bit :)

currently waiting for that lazy bum to wake up.

My inner love of the Houndstooth

Updates!

my job hunting is still on.
i didn't understand why since now that the economy is doing so well, but just why that most companies would pay so little.

now i'm not sure if i should go for a full-time job cause i'm still unsure of what i want.
OMG.
but it would be better paying after getting the diploma cert then.

one more interview tomorrow through direct employer :)
let's see how it goes. hopefully the salary based is good.
but i am able to commence immediately but but but...
this is what you have to do when you're in a relationship:
delay job hunting till he gets enlisted :(
what if i get it tomorrow and they need it immediately? oh heaven.

//tuesday

and the boy's farewell at NOS has been changed to yesterday due to most who cant make it on Saturday.
15 went.
opened i think 3 martell and 2 chivas?
the rest left for dragonfly (close to 2am!)
omg, me and the boy was stucked at BQ cos he was wearing berms.
thou i very much wanted to go cos i didn't go st james for a long time but..
too bad.

no choice. didnt want to get home so early, so went to DOME for our lan-ing sessions.
haha, and finally i played V-net! played team fort II and FIFA etc.
i'm nuts over lan now, alright la.
after 3 hours or so of gaming, at 6 in the morning, we flagged the cab and say gdbye.

now now, comes the bills of so much of entertainment.

arghhhhh. i'mgonagetmynewHPsoonsoonsoon.

xiang yu tai zao

//Sat

went to the boy's house for some cooking of lunch.
i reached there super late (cos it's at CCK!) at 3PM.
and both of us haven't had our lunch yet.
were starving like mad in the midst of cooking. TSK.

we cooked:
fried egg with small prawns
chicken in soy sauce
fried dory fish with ginger, garlic etc.

and the seasonings were all the same -.-
now we know the pains of cooking, it just makes one more tiring and hungrier.
that i can even eat up a cow.
washing up after a very full meal is worst. became more lazy.

dinner had chicken mushroom campbell soup and mocked abalone! LOL.
and us being the couch potato for 50 first dates on a saturday night on 5.
where's the night out at boat quay? it's been a lonnnggggggg time.

//Sun

his off day again.
met the boy at Toa Payoh for his sight seeing of second hand Nokia 8 series models before he gets enlisted on march 13th.
pratically roamed the whole of toa payoh central -.-
freaking tired then had not-so-nice bak kut teh for lunch at this coffee shop.
can't believe i bought this large cup bubble tea with half filled bubbles at $4.30 at KOI's cafe.
and its seriously f-ing nice! worth it mann.
the many bubbles made me just wana puke all the lunch i previously had.

then to town, his workplace again, DUH.
find his colleagues.
we went to dome first for dota and other games etc etc before Benny knocks off.
was suppose to go down Bottoms up to finish up his balance.
when we reached there, 3/4 of BQ was closed!
i then went to waiting to find my dear anicia. missed her like how much i miss her baby.

OK, then we went HOME.

this Saturday will be at BQ anyway for the boy's farewell with 20 over people at numbers :)

无醉无龟! LOL.

the drill

I am..
still looking for an F-ing job.
many agents, but the companies dont want me sia. :(
dont tell me.. my last way out is to sell HP?

heard commission can earn quite abit man.
but i've no experience in sales and i'm so quiet myself.
that's why i need an admin job!
stick myself to the computer all day long.

long time no dota.

my life super sian.
help.
the results of my dip will take like a million years to come?

and i think if i still dont get a job, by 13th of march i shall chiong like siao.

goodbye!

xiao qing ge

life is weird.
life is funny.

made transfers for me n mer jus now.
and im fuking sad for today.
cos the 2 dresses i want is out of stock and the other is pending!
OMFG!
this never happened to me before.
online shopping is fuking driving me like some dumbfuk crazy nuts la.
i bet marie is gona agree with me when she goes gaga over some dress online.
LOL.

i wish if i can.
i wana erase my past.
some were shameful.
some were hidden.
some were the good ones.
but a past is a past.
no matter how much you wana erase it,
it will never go away.
it's best to be honest because it will just be against your conscience.
so as long as we lived each day happily, learning from our experiences and changing for the better. i bet life is just as worthy as ever ;)

ah long pte ltd with boyboy just now.
hahaha. not the girlgirl anymore after the haircut.
ah long movie is okayyyy la.
best part is mark lee's scenes ONLY. esp nupital part.
the others are purely lame shit with animations. -.-

next,
waterhorse,
PS wo ai ni,
Juno?

is it love? or companion?

it's love.. then companion.

when 2 met but doesn't click.

what do you do?


dudewei. hiakhiak. HOT.

du.ni.de.si.ren.tou.
dududu
duuuuuuuuuuu

crazy me.

winston place yesterday bai nian.
thank you for the food&entertainment.
hiak hiak.

V day V day!

hey hey,
happy V day all!

had a sumptous dinner at jack's then jumper movie at the cathay.
simple simple.
and the recent 2 other movies i've caught are kungfu dunk (i wan kungfu panda !)
& Chang Jiang #7 (CJ7)
Cj7 was kinda lame and funny la, mostly at reactions and expressions and storyline a lil upsetting.
Kungfu dunk was average to not that bad, just some normal storyline with a lil twist of comedy ;)
yeah, and i wana catch ah long pte ltd!
heard goods and bads about that movie thou.

aiyo, god, please, i need a job la.
LOL.

Slacking isn't very good you know.
But the only thing i hated most was waking up early for office work!
Duh!
Hate the cold shower, hate the morning shivers and monday blues.

V day is just like any other day.
A V day is everyday :)

Life's really too unexpected at times.
cherish the ones near you, for you cant predict what may happen tomorrow.
for riders out there, pls be careful ya!

我不愿放弃却要故意默默允许
我答应自己爱你的心绝口不提
总是以为终究化作云淡风轻
爱你到底痛了自己

and...
im finally going for an interview tomorrow :D
hope my temp job will come soon.

now im like a very home person and that sucks.
cause i'm in very deep thoughts late in this hour and i wana comment that
I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS!

lol.
i'm out of touch from BQ
and like didn't really contact some of my friends.
cause i just wana prevent the nags?

i'm gona meet all of you sweeties real soon.
hehe.
i miss all the girls laaaa :(
and the group :D
you should know who you are.

anddddddd.
yes, socializing is very important to me.
Hurhur.
cause it kinda brightens up my night.

i will be back on track soon.

considering if i should further my studies.
not young anymore.
LOL.

for now,
i really really need a break.
i wana travel badly :(

and

i really miss all my gfs luh =(
not forgetting i miss touching the tiles too. MAHJONG LAH! :D:D

reached home close to 12midnight just now :)
today was kinda good, kinda not boring for me like after many yrs of keeping quiet during visiting.
went to step aunt's place at opera est. for buffet dinner.
met many relatives there.
step cousins step step aunt here and there etc.
super complicating (the trend of many wives from the past 3 generations, LOL)

i will always be the quiet one around with me n lil sis sitting at one corner
but was being introduced to my cousin's gf.
she was super friendly and cute with a bubbly personality.
ended up, me, cuzzies john, jessica & chris & his gf anna, and a few aunties played this game which i had just learned called Jim Rame!
pretty fun, and it really makes you think.
and this game is super old la, no wonder youngsters don't know about it :/
but i lost a few games, cos i do not have passport to them. hurhur.

playing games with cousins is good cos it'd made you open up more to them.
hahahah.
and i was kinda like not quiet anymore.
oh, not-so-shy april lei.
LOL.

fruitful fruitful :)
more visiting for me! more angbaossssss.
huat huat huat.

the last waltz

I wondered should I go or should I stay,
the band had only one more song to play.
And then I saw you out the corner of my eye,
a little girl, alone and so shy.
I had the last waltz with you,
two lonely people together.
I fell in love with you,
the last waltz should last forever.
But the love we had was going strong,
through the good and bad we get along.
And then the flame of love died in your eye,
my heart was broke in two when you said goodbye.
I had the last waltz with you...
It's all over now, nothing left to say,
just my tears and the orchestra playing.
La la la la la la la la la,
la la la la la la la la la.
I had the last waltz with you...
La la la la la la la la la.
* * * * * * * * * *
recently i'm like a home person.
i'm just hooked to seeing online clothings
and simply hooked to scv ch 55 8 & 9pm HK serial.
and the link between the hk serials & the clothings in blog = all vintage.
vintage clothings and dramas that acts in the year of the 70s
LOL
maybe i guess that's how the influence comes about.
april is a deadly vintage lover.
an authentically confirmed. hahaha.

fate. has it ever happen?

and my necklace which i had ordered has yet to arrive in my mailbox :(:(
wich means. i cant wear it for the CNY neither could i pair it with my plain dress.
booooo.

the trail of our memories necklace ;)

anyway, merry CNY all. hope more angbaos come this yr cos economy rising!
MOREEEEEE ++++++

loveloves :)

long distance - janice wei lan

when i'm feeling blue, lost without a clue
sparks between our eyes, nothing can be as true

sing my life for you
paintings that i drew
one plus one makes two
how i wish to caress you

tell me where we're heading to
what we do may seem so crude
where's the good in our goodbyes
the time you leaves
the time you break my heart in two

even though we're far apart
send my love with all my heart
when you miss me at night
look at the stars shining bright

for the time you pulled me through
all the things i do for you
running tears from my eyes
thinking how will i survive next goodbye
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

she sat there, as still as stone, in astonishment.
not knowing what to do.
not knowing how to make decisions.
not knowing which route is the right way out.
she did jus wished if things are ever this perfect its that when you will change
all for the better
you're already good, but letting how things be, not controlling within your limits is one thing to let go.
i, appreciate, you.
loves.....

sometimes life is weird. the things in life we got expect goes unexpected.
sometimes, i miss my past. certain past. only the fun, the happiness and the laughters.

yay! last day of exam/sch for april! :D temp-job-hunting sessiong starts now!
i've got fuking lotsa clothes, bags, eyelash, pumps, accesories, hair/makeup maintenance to buy! life for a girl ain't easy but sure is fun =P